幾經思量，安靜和禱告，我決定了背上輕省的擔子上路。我決定不再與人比較，不去計算得失。回想從前總有很多的比較﹑很多壓力﹑很辛苦，步伐很沉重﹑人很勞累。沒有信心走下去源於自己瞧不起自己，一直打壓﹑懷疑自己的信心和能力，令沒有天份的我顯得格外笨拙>

現在我知道，我不是要為自己安排更舒適的明天，我是個僕人，我要向神交賬。祂從不計較得失﹑多少﹑榮辱等。祂按我的誠實和忠心來計我的賬。我心欣然快慰，因我知我盡力準備，努力工作，祂便喜悅我。漫漫長路上，我需要朋友的支持，我需要休息。真正的休息來自賜予力量的神。每每抬頭望主，心便覺得力。前路還需要好好準備﹑計劃和計算，求主同往並"撐住我"^0^。 「知道自己無能為力，才認識神的大能;

體會到自己的軟弱，才依靠神彰顯的恩典;

清楚自己的限制，才明白神的智慧;

承認自己的罪，才感受到神的寬恕;

放下自己一直追求的計劃，才成就神放在我身上的藍圖。

我要把你放在我心上，單單在乎你。 」

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After Struggling, waiting and praying, I try to go on to the statue that I never dream of. I go with no fear, no compare and no burden. Because, God bears everything for me. When I look back, I was always walk with pressure, compare and worries. I can feel hard to move on. The worst thing is : I always look down on myself. Don't ask me why, I don't know why. But I just keep doing this. It makes my confidence and power less and less. So stupid am I.

Now, I know that I'm not seeking for a better life for tomorrow. I recognize that God is the only one to account with me. He is not care about money, social statue...he account with my faith and loyalty. I'm rejoice in Him. When I going on in this way, I need friends' support and need rest. But the real rest from God. Every time when I look up to the sky, my heart release. May God give me patience and strength to go on.

"When I recognized that I can do nothing and knowledge of God can do everything;

When I'm still powerless, God show me Grace;

When I see my limitations and understand God's wisdom ;

When I call myself a sinner, God set me free.

When I put down my secludes and work out God's map in my life.

I put God in my heart and I only care about You. "