It's 4:14 p.m.,just a day as usual. But my heart is complicated. I've got something difficult to get through. Since the year 2010, all things were failed to me. Have no chances to a new start. Not passed the English exam. Not got a good mark in examination of this term. Though Mr.Q have done me a favor which seemed like a spark in my year 2009 to 2010. I'm really appreciate for it. But it seems like I'll fail Mr.Q. I know that I havent done my homework yet which I should do by heart. It's all because my heart is complicated. There're so many truths I'm facing, the theme, finding a job etc. The pressure has made me loss my way. I dont know if only I can get a success after all these troubles. And nobody knows. The exam I took this morning made me a real big shit. I dont know what kinda attitude should I keep in my life that can make things much better.

Shit! Fuck! Bugger!! Maybe I should shut my eyes and think about what I really want, what I really need and what attitude I really should keep towards others and myself. Cheer up B. Maybe it's just not my time. Finally I'll get the opportunity and get a fucking job. No matter the result, I should be cool down and graceful. No matter how do others treat me, I'll do my best to finish the college life and start a new career. Just believe myself and understand it ain't about others but all about myself.  Circumstance cannot be changed, so I need to make me adapt to it and find confidence in it. I'll be stronger and braver to face all kind of cases. Come on B. Maybe you are not so bad as you think. Maybe you can get some success someday. It's just a matter of timing. So Come on...

Wish mother father and grandfather have healthy bodies and happy long lives.

Wish myself good luck.
Wish it's gotta get bad before it gets good.