凌晨2:40,我一个人坐在床上…想要将一些问题理清楚…
我想要什么?我那么歇斯底里到底是为什么?
至于歇斯底里的原因我想是因为那每一个teenager都会渴望的东西吧,但占据我的并不只是这个我迟早都要得到的东西,而是有一种更加powerful的力量在我的想象 间穿梭,交织了梦想,爱情,亲情,友情和我自己的感情.爱情,这个我极度渴望的Fantasy到现在却渐渐变得触不到,感受不到,甚至开始空洞.奇怪的是我也没再像那个16岁的自己一样,无比渴望一份完美的爱情.这个曾不知怎样开始过的美好也在一阵冲动后渐渐变淡,而他,在我生命中彻底消失,一年的杳无音讯…我渐渐将他忘记…But I miss him, so want to hear from him…
回想自己的16岁,竟会有一种淡淡的感伤,无法想象一个女孩怎么可以承受这些…但都已经过去了不是吗?People don’t know what happened to me, so they think I’m always happy. Just hope that person who can understand me can appear in a while.
Adolescence似乎在我这表现的特别强烈,叛逆,大胆,unstoppable,忧郁,无穷无尽的想象…但我爱上这些了,希望这些可以在我心里停留久一点…
I’m grateful that I’m a teen and I want to be a teen. Hope I can get what I want in my 17’s, in this beautiful age…
And now I’d just say: Ellen, open your eyes, open your heart. See, there are beautiful smiles, there is wonderful sky, there are shining stars, and you’re one. But don’t be afraid of close your eyes once in a while, cause sometimes you need to feel with your heart.
I love me, I am me.